My mother called Tim tonight...told him that the man who's been my dad's best friend since school and my second 'father' has only a few days to live...I'm stunned...and depressed. I don't want him to go...I don't want him to die.

As I'm typing this I'm sitting here crying my eyes out. He wasn't able to come to the wedding because of the fact he was so sick. I didn't actually think he would die so soon...I don't care what I have to do but the day of the funeral if I work there is no way I'm going into work. I will be there one way or another. I want Tim with me too because I don't want to have to be strong for daddy again...not like when Abe died...

Please keep Gene in your prayers.

It's really hard right now. My great aunt El (Eleanor) died Thursday and tomorrow is the funeral. I miss Tim right now because I'm at the parents house. I feel about crying right now cause I miss him so bad and want him to be here and because I miss aunt El and wish she would have been able to see me marry. But from what I hear she was in a lot of pain so she's in a better place. My Grandma M. (her sister) was waiting for her because Aunt El died on Grandma's birthday. My brother is waiting too...tomorrow is the six year anniversary of his death. *gives a slight laugh* and the day after that is my six month anniversary with Tim. God it hurts...I miss them all so much...

Justin in case Cris didn't tell you I'm sorry for snapping at you when we talked, I just didn't really like the fact someone I thought had known me well had thought just because they thought I was pregnant I had gotten engaged. I didn't realize you guys had known about the scare I had and didn't know how it had come out. Which was obviously negative, thank God...

Not really a whole lot else to say. I think I'm off for the night because Tim's about to get off and I want to talk to him before I go to sleep.

Love you all.
Kat